My intent was to entertain you by presenting side-by-side monologues ~ one being Me, the other Self. (Me having had an extremely rough week, Self having a delightful one.) However, Me is emotionally drained and Self declined.
Me dealt with drama.
*There was multiple car drama.
Car One failed it’s Test Only smog check by a mile. Luckily and thanks to my mechanic who’s “The Man,” Car One passed.
Before Car Two completely died, I maneuvered it in the general direction of a curb. I was shocked when the next morning the car cooperated long enough for me to drive it to “The Man,” who fixed it (charging very little for that honor).
Waiting is Car Three’s operative word. Waiting to be sold. Waiting for Signator One to sign off. Waiting for Signator Two to sign off. Waiting for Signator One to sign off in ALL the appropriate spots. Waiting for Signator Two to explain why there’s a strike out on the pink slip. Waiting for the paperwork to come back while the buyer is still interested. (You get the idea.)
*There was twenty-something drama. Without divulging confidences, I will say I am privileged to know — up close and personal — one amazing twenty-something. This young woman taps into her Little Voice, heeds its counsel, acts appropriately when she sees a wrong, and is willing to trust the Universe that by doing right by her Little Voice, things will work out. This week she’s discovered when you do those things, support and encouragement come from sources you never knew existed.
*There was techno-drama. This is the one that kicked me in the butt. I’ve laughed about how techno-glitches are my hot button. How I overreact and they send me over the top. I wasn’t laughing this week. Even though I did everything right so I’d have backups if the computer failed (system recovery discs, system images, restore points, back ups and back ups to the back ups) , none of them worked. And while I’m fortunate my techie friend is willing to help after working 10-hour days, even that’s not getting the glitch fixed.
The office computer issue is pure SNOG. I work with a techno-phobe. Since I at least know how to turn on a computer (okay, so I know a little more than that *smiles*) I started taking on more of the computer maintenance, updates, reinstalls, etc.
I figured, “I should be able to help.” Buying into the mind-over-matter, I-can-do-anything-I-set-my-mind-to philosophy. However, I neglected to take into account that I don’t WANT to do this for the “job.” And with a HUGE amount of attitude and resentment accumulating over time, I am literally getting sick from it’s toxicity. (Not good.)
“I need to be self-sufficient.” That meant, to my warped thinking, I need to know everything, and be able to do everything, for everyone. (Impossible.)
“I ought to be able to figure this out.” How difficult can it be? Well, as technies around the world know, sometimes it can be EXTREMELY difficult. And, as I wrote above, I don’t want to deal with this for someone else. It’s not what I was hired to do. (No more.)
“I gotta come up with the answers.” Since I’m the one who took this on, I gotta come up with the answers. I gotta see it through. Okay, my value system requires I stick this out, but henceforth I am going to be ever vigilant before I pick up another SNOG!
Rereading this post showed me I’d again focused on the negative. There was a lot I handled well this week. I did some wonderful things for mySELF. True, the techno-glitches upset me, but they weren’t my entire week. That said, I am officially going to celebrate the good Me accomplished, and revel in the joy Self had. And if I fall back into my habit of focusing on the negative, I’m going to look at my doodle which I just printed.
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